There are some days when I don’t want to get out of bed in the morning, I don’t want to be responsible, I don’t want to have to think about doing the chores, getting food to eat, earning money to buy food, paying the bills, going to work… I simply don’t want to be an adult.
A number of circumstances lately have made these days more common for me. I haven’t wanted to have to shoulder the responsibility of working out what I’m doing with my life let alone facing the day. All I’ve wanted to do is simply rely on someone else to make the decisions, someone else to provide the food and the clothes, and pay the bills and do the chores, someone else to make decisions about career plans and lifestyle choices.
And then I saw a video about a family who were brought to a place of complete and utter dependence on God.
And I was reminded that God is our heavenly Father. He IS in control of every part of our life, he is the creator, he does provide for us each step of the way, he sustains us and he does want us to approach him as little children in dependence on their Father.
“Truly I tell you, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven.” -Matt 18:3
Whether I like it or not, I am wholly and utterly dependent on God alone, when these days come, and even when they don’t, I just need to stop wishing I could be a kid again, and bring my needs before Him, because He is dependable.